My Thoughts Wesley Crawford

Part of My Journey

Six and a half years ago, Sept 03, I became a child of God. Everything in the world was the same, but my life began to change. Not to say that things got easier, but my outlook on life and everything in it, changed. I learned that what we do is based on the spirits we allow in our lives, which create the thoughts in our minds. Like it says in Gal 6, if we sow to the flesh, we'll reap corruption, but if we sow to the Spirit, we'll reap eternal Life.

I thank God for what I've experienced, though I didn't enjoy it all, especially being homeless, a door was opened for me to move into a house owned by High Point Church, this is part of their ministry. I realize being homeless was my fault, I reaped what I'd sowed. I sowed to my flesh and my flesh left me out in the cold, without a place to live.

On a typical day in my life, this was BC, before Christ, I'd go to work and when I got home, I'd get high and this happened almost every day. Sundays and Wednesdays I'd go to church, but when I got home, I'd get high.  Do you see a pattern here?  I thought I was loving God and I thought I was saved, but I put getting high way ahead of God. I could love God, as long as I could still get high. Sundays and Wednesdays were for God, until I got home from church, then I'd get high. Check the verse below, it's about me, thank You Father God. By Your grace and Your Sons sacrifice, I am saved from death. Hallelujah!!!

Rom 7:24 Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from  this body of death?  (ESV)

When I moved into the High Point house, I quit getting high. How big is our God? At first, this was because I was in a house full of guys seeking the Lord and there was no opportune time to get high, but after a short time, my desire to get high was no more. Again I'll say it, how big is our GOD? I was being filled with the Spirit and learning Spiritual Truths.

There are a couple of times in my life that I thought I was saved.  Both were previous to me living at the High Point house and attending the High Point Church. Speaking with a brother the other day, I realized, at salvation, when my spirit was awakened to new life by the Holy Spirit, there should've been a noticeable change in my life, I mean, I should have started reading the Bible and praying, at least. Of course this didn't happen until I started going to High Point Church and began learning Spiritual Truth. I've since realized, I had a pretty big experience at my salvation. I remember having such a hunger for the Word of God and for His Spiritual Truth, so much so, that I got rid of my CD's, my books, and several of my t-shirts.

I love the Lord today, but I've realized the more you learn, the more your eyes are opened and the more your eyes are opened, the more sin you see in your life. Also,  the enemy will attack you with so much condemnation, you'll think you deserve all of the pain you've experienced.

Also, I have a greater understanding of what Paul was talking about in Rom 7:15. I want to do what God says, but I'm still sinning, how can this be? Thank You Father for Your grace, mercy, and love, and thank You for Your Son.

Rom 7:15 And I have no clear knowledge of what I am doing, for that which I have a mind to do, I do not, but what I have hate for, that I do. (BBE)

I hope this helps someone.
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If you have questions, then please ask.
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Thanks and God bless.

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